Episode 5
After all who else, if not me?
From age four, she was sexually abused by her father—and soon trafficked to relatives, friends, and strangers for profit. By five, her grandmother became her “trainer,” teaching her to seduce men in exchange for survival. Chained in a nightclub, filmed for abuse material, and repeatedly impregnated and forced into abortions, she endured what would later be called one of New Zealand’s most severe cases of child sexual abuse. Her mother walked away. Her brother joined the torment. She attempted suicide three times before turning 16—the day she finally walked free. For decades, she carried the wounds in silence, repeating cycles of unsafe relationships, convinced she was unworthy of love. Healing came slowly—through journaling, therapy, meditation, and, at 60, writing her memoir. In telling her truth, she lost her family but reclaimed herself. Her story isn’t just about survival—it’s about the unbreakable power of the mind, and the fierce, necessary act of choosing yourself when no one else will. After all, who else, if not me?
Narrator: Rebecca Gibney
Rebecca Gibney
Rebecca Gibney is one of Australia and New Zealand’s most beloved and respected actresses.
Rebecca is currently in production on the Acorn TV/TVNZ series A REMARKABLE PLACE TO DIE. She most recently starred in the Stan drama series PROSPER with Richard Roxburgh and will next be seen starring in the third season of the popular Acorn TV/TVNZ series UNDER THE VINES which she also executive produced.
Rebecca’s notable and award winning television credits include the Amazon Prime series BACK TO THE RAFTER, popular Network Seven series PACKED TO THE RAFTERS for which she won the Gold Logie Award for Most Popular Personality, the acclaimed Network Seven series WANTED in which she co-created, produced and starred in, HALIFAX: RETRIBUTION and HALIFAX F.P., THE FLYING DOCTORS and ALL TOGETHER NOW.
Her notable film credits include LOWDOWN DIRTY CRIMINALS, LUCKY BREAK, CLUBLAND, THE DRESSMAKER with Kate Winslet, and MENTAL with Toni Collette for which she won an Australian Film Critics award for Best Supporting Actress.